I really need to find myself because everything has become far too uncertain. I guess it’s up to me to decide where I fit.
October 27th, 2008
$
The topic of money really sucks the life out of me. It makes me want to curl up in a ball… The idea of making two long-distance trips over the next two weeks just pains me. I’ll be in Philly this weekend and Long Island the following. I need more friends that live in every city of every state in existence. And you see I’m stubborn and greedy. I won’t tell other people that I NEED money. I’ll tell them of my situation, but I could never ever ask another person for any sort of GREEN. I will choose to pay for others’ or buy gifts for them in excess. The whole topic just makes me moody, grouchy, and emotional.
I just need to win the lottery or marry rich.
Someone just needs to knock some sense into me…and tell me that everything will be fine. But then they bring up the economy is doing horribly…which to me is like saying…omg the sky is falling.
October 19th, 2008
Lets Run a Marathon
So I want to promise a monthly update on my life since it’s something I’ve seen other people do…and who wouldn’t want a lovely update on the crazy things going on within my life.
Starting with last weekend, I ran the terrapin trot, which was great. Unfortunately, I had cramps at the 1.5 mile, so I was slowed down by those deadly feelings within my side. So how are you suppose to get rid of those side cramps?? Most people tell me they stand up tall and contract their stomach muscles. SO next time I get those cramps, I’ll just start Lamaze breathing, and run with great posture while contracting my inner core muscles. heh I just want to get them completely. Can’t we just banish cramps altogether by pressing ONE BUTTON? The response after pressing such a bodily button would be: That was easy! Anyways, other than wanting a button, I’ve been looking into running some future races, perhaps the Turkey Trot?
I’m almost done with my secondary applications for PA school, but for some reason I haven’t set aside a time to completely finish them. There is always something else I’d rather be doing, even if it’s doing a project for a class. Hopefully, some time this week, I’ll finish everything up.
School has been a lot easier than it has ever been. I’m STILL taking 17 credits, but the word load is perfect. I probably won’t be able to replicate such a schedule next semester, but I’m going to try my best. I’m probably going to sign up for:
- Engl310- Medieval and Renaissance British Literature
- Engl433- American Literature: 1914 to the Present, the Modern Period
- Bsci425- Epidemiology and Public Health
- Bsci348P- Special Topics in Cell Biology and Molecular Genetics: General Biology Teaching Practicum
- Nfsc100- Elements of Nutrition
The english classes are ‘maybes’ for now. I’m really looking for a class that doesn’t require too much work/reading, so that I’ll still have time to work every week. So we’ll see… I was also thinking about Engl389L. Meh I’ll figure it out later tonight.
I’ve been working at the vision therapy and physical therapy clinics. I’m trying a new approach when I speak to patients, and that’s to evoke positive energy and care. Can you evoke care? lol Recently at happy hour with my managers, I spoke to one PT and she was telling me that she tries really hard to show her positive energy to all her patients, with hopes that they’ll transfer theirs as well. I wonder how this simple exchange could affect two people for the rest of their day. I mean …I really feel like it shouldn’t take much to make a person smile or feel good about themselves. Whether it’s holding a door open, giving a person a hug, or simply saying, “Have a wonderful day.” Now, I know the truth, and there will always be rude people, but I believe in a better more wholesome place. So the last time I spoke about these two jobs was over the summer, so I’d like to say that everything is going great. I’m feeling so comfortable in each setting, which makes work so much more enjoyable.
So this upcoming week, my little gets to find out that I’m her BIG. Wednesday is lock down, so by then I should have her gift ready. I’m still scrambling to figure out exactly what I want to get her; it’s going to be good though. But at this point, the gift is am ambiguous-blur-of-thoughts.
Choosing a Halloween costume also falls under this ambiguous-blur-of-thoughts. Guess what the search words are for all female college students across the world. “SEXY ________ COSTUME” You won’t find anything if you don’t use these specific words. I’d really like to be IRON MAN, but it doesn’t come in the form of SEXY. I would be fully clothed, which doesn’t sound half bad since Halloween is COLD. I’ve already been a SEXY bumblebee and a SEXY referee…who knows what I’ll be this year. OH speaking of Halloween, I’m going to a Haunted House on Oct 30, here’s some information on the place:
Bennett’s Curse
This event is a 3 part adventure with one attraction leading to another. It starts off in Castle Bennett then goes into the House of Vampires, then leads to the Sanctuary of Insanity & the Dominion of Darkness. The place is located in Baltimore, MD which means we will be needing drivers.
I’m going with a bunch of DEM members, so it should be HELLA-fun. 
Alrighty, it’s time to get some work done. Love you all
October 13th, 2008
I love this
Can you believe how simple it is to make a persons day? I’m going to try and make the same effort everyday.
October 5th, 2008
Like I Said
The other day a large group of DEMers and I went out to Thirsty Turtle, which was simply a blast. Knowing so many people in a relatively small room is such a great feeling since every which way you go you’re like “heyyy!”
That night, I also found someone who shared my interest of swing dancing! So tonight, I’ll be going with him to lessons! Also while at the bar, Diana and I had the craziest idea (well not so crazy to us, but for everyone else we told at the bar) to go to the gym! Great times with that as well 
I feel like this entry would fall under the category of “xanga,” since there’s no real meat to what I’ve written. But it feels great though…not the real meat part, but …you know.
Shortest to Tallest
Two of my favorites <3
:)
October 4th, 2008
Platinum
Whenever I close my eyes, quickly my mind forms your image
I fill in the missing pieces with my own thoughts and you become completely molded
Yet you’re still faint and color is yet to fill out your body
You’re there though
Lifting me up and twirling me around
October 2nd, 2008
Hot hot
Hey there,
These past two weeks have been what the french would call abondance d’herbes chinoises. Actually, I just took that off my new lotion bottle, sounds mysterious though right? Lets start with last week. *cue time machine noises* Last week was amazing since it included rush events, which are tantamount to getting kissed for the first time except without the awkward thoughts of how to place the tongue. Because hell, the tongue could go anywhere, it could lose all control and end up in the other persons nose, but somehow, someway we know the tongue is made for that french sort of stuff. I remember a time where I actually looked it up on-line. I won’t go any further, in fear of embarassing myself. Just like when I showed someone the videos I had posted on-line for Seesmic or found out that D made an account to see what I was saying. EEK! ANYWAYS, rush events was an enjoyable experience. Everyone was excited and flirting the heck out of everyone. Don’t take that the wrong way though. Everyone who came out was just trying to impress who they were talking to therefore there was constant eye contact and attention given to that person. There should have been fondling too, that would have certainly gotten the other persons attention.
Anyways, after that week we had their banquet. It is awesome to see a group of people getting to know each other albeit very large. Certainly, once I get into Graduate school, I need to find a similar group because honestly, joining DEM is one of the best decisions I’ve made throughout my undergraduate career entire life.
I want sushi, omg do I want sushi. I have this wild fantasy in which I’ll eat sushi off another person. In a perfectly-pink tinted room, I would slowly start eating away each raw, succulent piece of meat off their body. I also have another fantasy to …lol you thought I was going to tell you. You’re funny.
I’ve finished all of my applications and it feels damn good. To be finished is like being finished with all of your final exams and having nothing left to do except EXPLORE THE WORLD AND WATCH A CATERPILLAR BECOME A BUTTERFLY. Yes, that’s how it feels.
