My life, it’s not that different from yours, we both go to classes which are similar even if the subjects are completely different, we listen to music and on occasion reach a level of pure bliss as we let our bodies get taken over by the notes, we both fall in love and see how much we need to give and receive back to maintain a healthy relationship, and we see how much our thoughts get occupied by that one and only, we both take hundreds of pictures hoping to capture that perfect memory, but after uploading the photo, we see the picture doesn’t do the memory justice, we both get those cravings for social fun, to go out and get completely drunk and see the world in a light and comedic tone, we have those nights where we instantly fall asleep since we are completely worn out, we change our looks to feel like we’re hot shit- it’s kind of like playing dress-up, but for real, we figure out there aren’t too many firsts left and look at how far we’ve come, we write endless amounts of notes, but we always seem to daydream for a little bit, whether it be drawing pictures to the side, staring at someones’ interesting outfit, practicing your signature, or just replaying a conversation that happened earlier that day, we procrastinate, but it’s always worth it in the end since we learn about someones latest status, heartbreak, accomplishment, we don’t think about other people enough, since we’re always thinking about our own lives, we live in our own little bubbles where we don’t even listen to the news anymore, although you could never help it since it was always on at home, and we always say that we’re too complicated to be understood, when we’re all really thinking the same things. We all dance at different paces, but in the end you’re still moving around just like me.
ParRents
Sometimes I get really frustrated with my parents for buying too many things since we’ve accumulated too much furniture, beds, and toys over the years. I just don’t understand why they think it looks good. I mean the item itself may look amazing, but if you don’t have a place to put it, there’s no need for it. Let me list some of things we have…
~ 3 dining tables
~ 1 huge piece of furniture that is supposed to wrap around a matching dining table (no idea what they would call it here in the U.S…but we call it a Sojourno. (sounds Native American) I think my parents bought it in Italy.
~ A Japanese styled chair from Japan of course….made for phones
~ 3 huge cabinets for plates, lladros, etc
~ Way too many clothes that need to be donated
~ Way too many purses (mom)
~ Dressers
~ Random stuff for babies…like cribs, bassinets, changing tables, etc
We currently own 3 homes, and my parents have done everything possible to make the 2 other houses look amazing.
I just don’t understand why we have so many things that haven’t been thrown away. The huge piece of furniture that I was speaking about earlier covers a wall-to-wall mirror. We have a bar and kitchen in the basement which aren’t being used since our basement has become a place for storage. I get embarrassed about the way things look because my parents just don’t realize that we need to do something…. It just leads to an argument every time I bring it up.
I mean what if we sold the 2 other houses…can you imagine how many more things we would have? One of the houses we own…is completely furnished. oh geez
I’m just tired of asking…and tired of seeing nothing happen.
Family, Derek, Friends, Turkey, Shopping…
This begins my most favorite time of the year =)
I’m Just So Lucky
I am so lucky to have Derek
in 15 minutes, he made the past 24 hours feel …less like that sinking-feeling at the back of your throat.
No Guarantees
So it’s something that I don’t want to talk about because I’m so indecisive about it, but I’m going to try it out and see how it ends up. I don’t want people to think that I keep changing my mind. Because it shouldn’t be “AGAIN?” “what? …again.” Because I’m tired of it. Anyways, this is it, and I’m going to try it out…no guarantees but no one is knowing.
Thanks, bye.
Smile in the Morning
*yawn*
How I love getting up at the ungodly hour of 6 am…
These past couple of nights have been amazing, with the exception of last night, but we’ll get to that later. Thursday night- I’m going to call Movie Lager night was crazy fun. Thursdays are always my longest days, what with classes and lab work, so the relaxing second half of my day is one that I always look foward to. We watched a movie in my late class (and for some reason I can’t remember the name of it) …afterwards I bumped into Ben and Dawit at the commons shop. They invited me to do Lager bombs in their room. lol So I don’t know if you can imagine this or not but I was extremely energized after we did four of them. I was moving around everywhere and even at 4 a.m… my eyes were wide open. It was like I was one of those energizer bunnies hopped up on some crazy drug and doing flips in the air. Remind me next time if I’m tired what I need to do. lol I didn’t fall asleep until 5 or 5:30 or so…drinking that night avec energy drinks was both the worst decision and best decision of my life. (hmm maybe i shouldn’t put for my life, but it was a good night)
Friday night- Blinding night. The name comes from the nostalgia-causing song called, “Blinded” by Third Eye Blind. It also comes from my blinding night? haha ok that doesn’t work out too well, but it was awesome since it was Laura’s birthday party. So to begin the festivities was the Third Eye Blind concert. It was my second time seeing them, and of course they were amazing. I loved the guy who was working the lights, he was getting so excited. You could see him bouncing up and down at the climaxes of every song. Best part was he must have been as old as my dad. The difference is the guy working the lights has better taste in music. haha what if my dad and I both like Third Eye Blind…what a crazy world that would be. After the concert, I met up with Abhisek, and we headed over to Laura’s shindig. I was pretty boosted from the beginning of the party since I saw all my old-favorites. The oldies, but the goodies. =) I turned into a little drunkard by the end of the night, but who did’t? lol
(So it’s strange…I had a journal while I was in Alaska and we weren’t allowed to write as chronologically as I did above. But I want to, but what they ingrained into me is causing me to keep thinking about Alaska. And Alaska makes me think about the future…not sure why though)
After the party, we headed back to my place…and that’s where I found Lindsey, Krissy, and Laura… the unfortunate, but drunk trio. I was still drunk so I ended up dancing around the room for awhile.
Saturday morning – Eggspectations Day. It was my suitemate’s birthday so we enjoyed a morning brunch with her. Her is Margaret. We lived in the same hall last year in Elkton and we also rushed for the sorority. It was a pretty amazing breakfast…loved the food there. Later that day, I had an appointment to view a house. It’s located a mile away from campus…it’s really close to the View…and I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am about this place. It has 8 bedrooms, 3.5 baths, 2 spiral staircases, a huge balcony, a HOT TUB, huge rooms, a huge basement with a bar…yes it’s amazing. Did I mention HOT TUB?!? Anyways, rent is about $600 a month (not including utilities…but it shouldn’t be that much because we’re splitting it up with 8 or 9 people) So there’s one room left, and I’ve been trying to fill the spot, but I’m having such a difficult time. Lindsey wants to be near Krissy, Katie, and Laura..it makes sense, but doesn’t all at the same time. Lindsey comes home some nights crying because of the two girls…she gets so upset because most times those girls can’t control themselves. One situation included one of the girls making out with a guy that Lindsey liked…or at worst had sex…and there’s other things like arguments over stupid stuff like pills…etc. I don’t want to go into it too much. But anyways, Lindsey wants to live near them…which would be near the Knox aparments. I don’t want to live there…or near them for that matter. I don’t really hang out with them anymore… They only enjoy getting drunk and high…they wouldn’t be the first people I turn to if I wanted to go play football, go eat out, or even get into the water at a pool. heh I mean I don’t really care that they do get drunk/high/smunished… I mean it’s fun, and you’ve got to live sometimes …but geez…not everyday. I still like Lindsey though…and when I did ask her about the house…she said no. I don’t think it was price since the rent is really not that bad…and the rooms in this house are huge so if she wanted to split one it would just be $300. She wants to be around the girls that make her sad every night…it’s kind of sad that she wouldn’t want to try something new. I know it can be scary, but I have assured her that the other people in the house are amazing. So anyways, summmary: need to fill empty room. and tell Lindsey again…that I just can’t live in the knox apartments…
Ok well, since that part of the topic is depressing, let me get back to the house. We’re going to get a dog! =)
Saturday night and Sunday morning – Money dayz. Work work work…not much to say there. chipotle with diana. work work
It’s been a great past couple of days, especially since I’m done with all of my 2nd exams….next week starts my 3rd set…=) Anyways, good morning to those who woke up bright and early to read this entry.
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3 years <3
More than ever…more than ever
I love you
August 28, 2005
The Goodbye
I walked him out to his van after the movie. The orange moon lit up the sky only slightly, the air was warm but a little chilly; the breeze swept us only too quickly to his van parked a little out of place. For the next few seconds he embraced me, I closed my eyes to savor the moment, I smelled his usual smell in hope of never forgetting his scent. I looked at his face, saw a smile on his face and hugged him even closer. The tears started falling down… then he wiped away my tears. That’s when I knew that everything would be fine.
I love him today, tomorrow, forever and three days.
And still do <3