mars•barz

Watch me as I watch you
When I walk towards you off the chinatown bus
We’ll take the easiest transportation to see each other
Cheapest so I can see you more often
Smile as I smile at you
Two weeks of waiting to see you
Phone calls to hear your voice again
And to hear the ‘I love you’
Because I love you.
Close your eyes as I close mine
In a twin size but we needn’t anymore since what would we do with all that room
Wrapped up and breathing in the memories that keep me remembering
I remember those days back in high school
Do you remember?
It felt so long ago
Things are different in a good way, in the best way they can be
I feel so much closer.
Almost three years, and still you surprise me, and I hope I surprise you too.

I can’t wait to be wrapped up in your arms.

Dear Peter Pan,

I wish you existed…because you could take me to that mysterious land of carefree fun. I’d make a good Tinkerbell…or even Lost Boy… I could help you defeat the pirates.

Me

I do not like my roommate. Let me repeat, I do not like my roommate. She just used and took my hair straightener and blow dryer without asking. The hair straightener is back in the bathroom along with a buildup of a ton of grease…this straightener cost me over $100. (you know the pink one they always advertise in the little boutiques at the mall) fucken aye. and now there is hair all around the sink and countertop…Now lets talk about how she has a bathroom in her room which she refuses to share with anyone else, but she uses the bathroom …5 girls use…and messes it all up. My blow dryer isn’t in the bathroom either….no requests to use it, no requests at all. oh AND THAT’S NOT IT. She was mad people were using the recycling bin and not taking out the trash, (which is not true.) So she turned the bin over with the trash still inside of it…and left it in the common room. And on a more environmental side, she doesn’t recycle. fucken. aye. i. give. up. on. her.

p.s. Did I tell you about the mean note she left up on our bulletin board? ugh.

Lets get up and dance on the ceiling…and lets just say that I don’t think I’m imagining. And you know who you are because I want to dance with you right now.

At first glance you might think, “interesting title” or even “intriguing title”…perhaps you might even want to read more. So answer the question, what the hell is wrong with me? My answer: What the hell is wrong with you? Nobody is perfect in this world…not even the world’s most renowned doctor or sliest argumentative lawyer. The taxi is waiting for us to come and answer the question: what’s wrong with all of us?

We live false lives where what you see is never how it really is in reality. People lose each other because of the false beliefs of everything being alright. People lose faith in their government heads because of the silver-lined topics about war and controversies. People lose themselves because they think their lives are perfect aside from the drugs, smoking, and constant partying. Of course, who doesn’t think drugs, smoking, and constant partying is important…who wouldn’t make those a priority. Then there are the people who just don’t give a fuck. These are the people I admire because I give a fuck about many things. I just don’t know how they do it. Of course, not giving a fuck probably makes you feel empty inside…either that or a tyrant. heh Just imagine what that would be like, not feeling anything. I couldn’t do it. Then there are those people who think they are special who probably think that they dream differently from other people. Of course these people exist, but they are rare. Most of us if we have both lobes think about everything constantly. Our brains are filled with neural connections that trouble even the greatest minds who investigate their properties.

I know many things, but there is one thing that baffles me. It baffles me down to the inner core of me, yeah…i know that’s deep.

~It’s amazing how you can sound angry at the world with one entry. Words can do so much …it can change your perception of a person, they can even make you think twice about something. My intent wasn’t to sound angry or rant, it was to get a point across.

What you say can cause people to listen intently…

and how you answer lets the person know that you care…or don’t.

Quit controlling your fears because the tears will fall
They will fall to the ground
With the only goal …to get away from you.
They will…
Leave your face,
Clean away the sorrows,
And balance everything

So let it all go
Let the tears run away.

So many reasons to let them run away..
Love…

Love takes our bodies and throws them up in the air
for a second we don’t know where we are,
what we’re doing,
how we’re suppose to do things,
And then it all comes together.
Breaking the second law
Causing everything to come into order
Twists and turns come in and out
You can either sink or swim…
Because our hearts are strong and our minds are weak.
But remember they still say that love conquers all.