mars•barz

Look past the snow and ice falling down, beyond everything else, and just close your eyes.

All of my classes have been going well, except for bloody chem lab. I completely forgot about a prelab that needed to be turned in. Usually I’m attentive to everything that is due in lab, but apparently not. On blackboard a 20 point, easy pre-lab was due that I didn’t even recall hearing about. The only reason why I knew about it is because I checked my grades and noticed that an average grade for the class was available and a hyphen next to my grade. In the long run 20 points shouldn’t matter that much because of how many points we have over the semester, but it still hurts to know that I missed out on 20 points. OK enough of my talking on and on about this. I need to stop this whining. I’m just a bit angry so I think I’ve vented enough to be over not getting those 20 points. (Did I mention my professor is a bi$#h…yes I said it)

Anyways, all of my other classes have been going well.

Genetics: I got an A on the first exam, which was really exciting for me. =) It was above the average by a good amount too so that made me feel really good. I’m really liking this class.

Chem Lab: Gay

Chem Lecture: The teacher goes a bit slow for my taste, but she seems really nice. We have an exam next week, so I’m hoping everything goes well with that.

Abnormal Psychology: I love the subject, but the professor annoys me since he chews gum really obviously. I watch the white piece of gum move up and down throughout his mouth. It’s rather disgusting actually. At any rate, the subject is just really interesting to me, and I love it when the professor goes off on tangents.

English: I really enjoy discussing the readings in class. Dr. Jelen is really talented at opening the floor up and getting people to communicate.

Honors class: I want to go to Japan now. Yesterday we saw a Kabuki dance. It might look easy, but it’s hard as anything. We danced a bit with them and it definitely wasn’t as easy as it looked.

Job #1, #2, #3: yup still have those

Summer: I have an interview with Lead America next week, and my August is already figured out. =)

Ok there we go, I need to get some breakfast…I can hear noises.

What will I give up this year?

I don’t normally give up anything for some reason or another. This year I feel like I really should give up something to see how much of a better person it will make me. Will it make me healthier, happier, more wholesome?

- Give up soda (like everyone else) (I don’t even drink that much)
- Give up facebook (oh psh)

I don’t do anything bad enough to make me want to give up anything. There are the little things, but I don’t even eat/drink them enough anyways.

- Give up spending money (now that’s a good one, seeing that I’m spending about $1500 for the summer. oh and did I mention, I need a new printer…and an external hard drive)

- I will give up judging people when I know I shouldn’t be. and I will also give up all soda products. (soda is the devil)

Good god I’m in an awesome moood!

I love this day!
My valentine’s fringed desk of love is filled with books…but it’s ok, cuz valentine’s day weekend is just around the corner.

soon i’ll be done with two exams, two papers, one 2-week long lab report…soon veryyy soon.

=D

I should not even be thinking about posting right now.

~ I sometimes wonder if I come out more negative or positive to some people? What am I portraying to people?

~ I just want to build the longest hopscotch ever, and do it over and over again.

~ Why haven’t I received that stupid, little thing yet…it’s probably the littlest, simplest thing that I could be asking for, and I haven’t gotten it..and why does that make me sad…

~ I love lemons in my water. I stuck 4 lemons in today.

~ Days to be happy. Years to be sad. Why was a book ever named that? The title made me pick it up though, kinda weird right? And now, I’m not some emo-child, I was interested to see what exactly there was to be said about the topic. Seeing that I’m in a music library, it was about music.

~ I think I’m a catch. I know that’s a bold statement, but that’s just what I think. You might think I’m not, or you may think I’m a huge catch…if I am…hot =)
(in terms of huge, I don’t mean size lol

~ good god i think ive gone crazy sometimes

~ I get big-headed sometimes and think that I’m always right and forget to think about what’s it like to be in another persons shoes.

~ I would play in the snow!
~ Sleep in!
~ Watch some morning cartoons
~ Have a snow ball fight
~ Drink hot chocolate
~ Slide down various hills around campus
~ Watch it snow
~ I would even get some work done

Now, what would i do with a school day:
~ Go to school

yeah I think snow days win, school days are for the lame ones a.k.a kids in highschool/middleschool/elementaryschool/preschool etc. There are so many schools that don’t have school, why couldnt they just add one more?

I loved how happy he looked. Just laughing, hanging out with us, giggling…hehe

And then how he tried to put his game face on… lol

Presence.
Look at all of the things I have written, listen to all the things that I think about, watch the places that I like to go, and the smells… Look at all the beautiful, familiar places. and all the amazing memories. How do you say thank you for some thing like that?

Everyone gets to a certain excitement. it’s a plateau that is reached on special occasions…where you just feel everything is wonderful and simple again. yeah. and everything is great. Life and Love are real. Everything and everyone are real. =)

If everyone just loved each other more, if we saw nature more, if we stayed in tuned with each others’ thoughts, if we didn’t judge… we just lose so much by not doing these things.

….write it

“One Art”

The art of losing isn’t hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost dorr keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother’s watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster.

-Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan’t have lied. It’s evident
the art of losing’s not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

-Elizabeth Bishop