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“If we were not so single-minded about keeping our lives moving and for once could do nothing, perhaps a huge silence might interrupt this sadness of never understanding ourselves… Perhaps the world can teach us, as when everything seems dead but later proves to be alive”
- pablo neruda

Amber Rubarth and Adam Levy

such beauuttiful voices

The Swing

I saw this painting in a patient room today. Let me begin by saying that I’m a huge Renoir fan…yeah modern art can suck it because Renoir is amazing. They’re all timeless pieces. (Below is my favorite piece)

Luncheon of the Boating Party

Ever find that you associate songs with certain people?  Rainmaker, Blinded, Sgt. Major, How to Save a Life, I Miss You, I’m Lost Without You. …to name just a few.  They might not be the greatest works of music, but they’ve become engraved with peoples’ names.  I wonder what song people associate me with…

*Have you ever driven to drive? Drive to get *driven*.*

I’m becoming more comfortable working at Parker. It’s a predominantly elderly population where the most popular mode of transportation isn’t by foot, but by wheelchair. Upon getting off the elevator, there’s a juke box that’s most likely set to play Frank Sinatra. There’s often a grand piano outside the elevators too, which I’ve been attempted to play over the past two days. It’s like a retirement home, but with residents that need just a bit more care.

The worst thing about this place is that it’s 20 years behind; there are barely any computers on the floors! It’s terribly difficult to look at labs or past medical history forms. Their system is inefficient, and they need to increase their accuracy by using an electronic medical record system. Their current system overworks their doctor’s and nurses. It’s time consuming to look through pages of chicken scratch. (I spend about an hour on average deciphering words in the chart!) I could have seen more patients with that extra time OR taken an extra long lunch break. Both sound great! I witnessed a fall this morning. After the fall, I was just hoping…praying that the pt was alright…falls are the 6th leading cause of death among elderly. I fully support bubble suits. Just kidding, I just hate to see these patients who have lived through so much suffer through the complications of a fall. It just stops their life in more words than the obvious.

After a long July, I decided that this would be MY weekend. The weekend where I would wake up whenever, make awesome meals, and explore my neighborhood. Most of all, it would be the weekend that I would relax. Well lets backtrack to see why…

On Friday, I took a terrible exam that encompassed everything you could think of in medicine. YES, IT WAS HORRIBLE. After finishing the exam, I decided that I STILL NEED to study despite finishing my internal medicine rotation. No worries though, it was only my first rotation. THANK GOODNESS.

Yesterday I rode my bike to the local market, coffee shop, and then back home for some quality viewage of the Food Network. Later, I went to Red Sky for a friend’s birthday. Good times.

Today! Today! LISTEN UP! I didn’t wake up until 1 pm. How does that even happen? Now I know I gave this weekend to myself and I allowed myself to wake up whenever…but to wake up midday! damn. An achievement right there.

Anniversary on November 3rd
My DEM number: 103
My PA number: 13
My locker number: 13

coincidence?

Being in the ICU, rounding with the residents and attending, learning about neurological emergencies, checking my overflowing inbox and phone, and blowing out 2 candles on a minnie mouse cupcake.

so thankful for everyone in my life <3

A blogger that I followed posted this video.  Damn good proposal.